Appointment With My New PCP Today

23 Sep

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Appointment With My New UCD Primary Doc

So I will try not to get too angry in this post but here it goes…

I currently don’t have a primary doctor (PCP) or specialist (except for a neuro, neuro surgeon and lyme docs) since my last doctor said he didn’t want to be my doctor and I should keep looking. Every doctor my mom and I see is rude, not people friendly (unless you have something they can see wrong with you) and pisses us off! They never believe any diagnoses that my other doctors write in my records and most diagnoses were from PCP’s, rheums, specialists, not just lyme doctors. Every doctor believes lyme doctors are quacks and that there is no lyme in Cali. So this is like doctor number 30+ in the past 20+ years of searching for a “good doctor” that I trust, like or that will actually help or listen.

We tried all the docs in my city and near by cities so my mom took us to UC Davis in Davis, Ca. Although I get very car sick we figured a short drive is better than having no doctor, especially with the new pain meds/norco law that you need to see a doctor face to face every month and there are no longer refills. So I need to see a doctor every month just to get my morphine and norco since all these stupid druggies give us severe pain patients a bad name. Plus driving to see my lyme doctor every month would be too much on me since she is further away. I get too car sick so I usually only leave the house to go to doctor appointments or to pick up meds, if I can do it that day.

So we get to UCD medical office and the receptionist was really nice so we thought maybe the doctor would be also.The doc walks in and sits down to read everything my dear mom had organized for us. He just said “hmmm” a lot. Basically he says he “wants me off pain pills because only cancer patients should be on pain meds”. You heard that right. I know people with and who have survived cancer and they say their lupus and lyme pain are far more superior than their cancer pain ever was. I know cancer is horrible but for him to say that is the only diagnoses that needs pain meds was outrageous. He didn’t like the fact I take muscle relaxers for twitches, cramps, spinal stenosis and most importantly …sleep! He said “I am a traditional doctor I don’t believe in pain meds or giving pills to help, that’s what physical therapy and psychologist are for”.

He starts asking m the usual “you must be either depressed or a drinker, smoker” questions. So I told him I tried tobacco chew one time in my teens & it made me turn green & I puked all night so I never touched it again. He has the nerve to write down “former smoker”!! So now all the doctors in the future will think I was a smoker & “unhealthy” then blame that on everything wrong with me. I never smoked! He asked if I was in a war or if anyone in my family abuses pain meds. Of course I told him the truth “NO” to every question. He asked when is the last time I saw a psychologist ad if I would be willing to see one. I said a few years ago I saw a psychologist from Medicare approval and she said I was fine. The I said “no I will not see one” because yes I am depressed I am sick and lost everything but no I am not super depressed and that is not what is causing all of this I go through each day.

My mom gave him all my positive diagnoses blood tests & records from Sutter, UCSF, & with other well known medical groups. He reads them all & says he’s “skeptical & just thinks I’m depressed”. He had to mention the usual idiotic statement “lyme is cured after 10 days of antibiotics so if you did them for 3 years you were already cured and the symptoms are lingering, you no longer have lyme”. I wanted to scream, so I told a joke instead, he didn’t crack a smile. I said so depressed people tell jokes and laugh like I do? My mom says how I am always upbeat and try to motivate and inspire others. I said “I wish I could see Dr House ha ha ha” the doctor replies “well house is a fictional character and I’m a real doctor”. Not even a smirk from him as if I wasn’t funny at all. Although that was my smart ass way of saying “it’s funny how a TV doc & myself know more than you, jerk”!

He said the usual response I get every time I need a PCP, “well I can’t really help you but I will ask around to see if I can find another doctor to help you but I can tell you none of them believe in Lyme here”. So my mom started to cry & begged him to help us. I don’t like to see my om crying so I wanted to punch him or say “let me get a lyme carrying tick and let it bite you and your family then you can take those 10 days of antibiotic 20+ years after you were infected and then tell me you are cured and show me proof”. My mom begged him that we just need a doctor in case I get the flu or sick from something else & we don’t want any prescriptions or Lyme care from him. He said “so when is the last time you had the flu anyway”? What does that matter? I said “a coupe of years but only because I am confined to our house so I rarely have human interaction but I used to get it a few times a year, every year”.

So the doctor saw my mom was desperate for help and he changed his mind a little, he said “oh I didn’t say I can’t help at all, I will get blood work done today and I will send you to a rheumatologist for your primary immune deficiency & also to our pain clinic. My mom read that their pain clinic may do Ketamine infusions which are hard to find and very hush hush and they may be covered instead of paying $900-$1200 each infusion currently. The doctor said “our pain clinic will want you off pain meds & they do physical therapy for pain so I don’t think you will get ketamine or pain meds”. Yeah physical therapy (exercise) really helps with that, been there done that!

It was just like usual he was closed-minded & didn’t want to be my doctor from the start. This is what I deal with every time & have to hold back from using profanity. He even literally said “you may find another doctor in this medical building that is more “open-minded” but not many. So he told us he was “skeptical and close-minded”. I can’t believe we live in a world where if we have an invisible illness we are treated like crap by strangers, doctors and even family members who think we are just lazy and getting needles and infusions for fun. The faces I get from people when I am wearing pajamas since my skin is too sensitive to heavy clothes sometimes or when I get out of the car in a handicap space (with my plaque). It’s enough to break a person down but I won’t let it get me down, when I am backed in a corner I fight!

The doctor left the room and didn’t shake my hand or get close he just kind of wanted out of there. We left feeling like nothing was really accomplished except we may get lucky and get ketamine infusions cheaper or we may get kicked out of there too. I felt as though he saw me as a depressed guy with CFS and I am a druggie. He didn’t care I have a weak immune my whole life, bone infections, almost died from elderly pneumonia in my teens….etc. One day I will find a good doctor again that isn’t a lyme doc and things may get better, until then we have to keep on going and keep up the fight because life goes on with or without us. Hope you all are having better days, stay strong.

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6 Responses to “Appointment With My New PCP Today”

  1. Kate September 23, 2014 at 8:46 am #

    Once again, I would like to recommend a consultsultation with a provider at Napa Pain Institute. They understand pain and offer a variety of treatments and medications to aid in the management of pain. That is ALL that they do and in my opinion do it with care and compassion.

    • 49er Bryan September 24, 2014 at 2:01 am #

      Thank you. My mom looked into them and I may try them one day. I have pain management docs and RX prescribers I just don’t have a regular doc for when I get a cold or flu or one near by I can see. I am trying to do ketamine high dose infusions I wonder if napa offers them, they are hard to find. The ones I get now are pricey.

  2. Katherine Gordon October 8, 2014 at 4:21 pm #

    I live in Texas so I may be way off base, but I have found my best most caring Drs to be outside of the major medical complexes and usually in small towns. Also D.O.s seem to be so much more helpful.

    • 49er Bryan October 10, 2014 at 12:37 am #

      Thank you for the tip. I found my naturepath doctors to be the most helpful also.

      • lifescapeswithcaroline January 18, 2015 at 11:11 pm #

        I have a great GP in Roseville. Dr Linda Agresti, DO. I am finished with UCD.

      • 49er Bryan January 19, 2015 at 12:07 am #

        I’ve walked out on UCD a few times. I hope this new doc is doing what she is paid to do and helping you. Good luck

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